Wow what a week.

Anyone who reads my blog knows that I garden to relax.

It’s just something about the feel of dirt under my nails, yes, I take off my gloves as much as possible when gardening.

So it’s Sunday May 19th and it’s 94 degrees outside. Seriously.

That is what my outdoor thermometer says. I am not amused.

It’s only the occasional breeze that makes it bearable. Hubs thinks I’m nuts because I’m on the back porch with a nice big glass of sweet tea and playing with my laptop. Before that it was my phone but I killed the battery.

Yesterday I dang near killed myself working with my canna lilies in the direct sun. I could feel the heat coming out of my eyeballs. Not good. Went in and striped down to cool off.

I split my lilies because they were so overcrowded that they won’t bloom anymore. I replanted the in two other locations in my backyard. I planted my little tomato plants I rescued half dead from HEB and put my pepper plants in the ground (tip: they are 3 for $12 at Home Depot this weekend).

After hubs fixed my treillis’ I staked up my oleanders that were drooping.

It was a good weekend for my yard.

So let’s talk about WHY I was working in the yard with it being 94 degrees outside.

I had a problem with a coworker on Friday.

She kinda freaked out. I asked her to do something and it went downhill quickly.

There was screaming and yelling….all from her.

There was a scuttle of staff members who actually physically pushed her into an empty room…to keep her from coming after me, I suspect.

Again speculation but in the context of everything that was happening it is a reasonable assumption.

I’m still not clear on what happened with that as my back was turned and I was walking the opposite direction.

I still don’t know exactly how this happened.

I do know we all have bad days.

I also know that on my worst day….I don’t yell and scream at my coworkers or try to physically assault them.

The question was what do I do…..

The charge nurse was notified and spoke with her but I don’t know anything about what happened or what exactly set her off.

so as always when I’m mulling something over I dig in the dirt….got alot done and came to a decision.

I decided I needed to notify the Nurse Manager.

It wasn’t a hard decision but I don’t want to see her lose her job. Nor do I want this to look like this is MY drama.

So I did what I needed to do to make sure that my version of what happened was documented. I also provided her with a number of witnesses, also coworkers, who could attest to what I stated.

I haven’t heard back yet but am wondering how this is going to be turned back on me….and it will be.

This isn’t this person’s first run in with me. Twice before she has started rumors or implied to a Doctor that I was purposely not doing my job appropriately. Both times it was traced back to her.

The last time I was called to admin because I approached her directly and told her to stop. She denied it and ran to admin saying I was picking on her and falsely accusing her.  The person she told these things to wouldn’t name her as the source….because this coworker has many ties to important people in our organization and was afraid of the trickle down …. she later told me privately it was that person who started it and what was said. Two other people confirmed that she had also made statements to a Dr about my work ethic. I wasn’t about to drag a Dr in this so I let that go.

I, being proactive, asked to work with this person.

I figure keep your friends close and your enemies closer. It worked well. I stroked her ego daily. I praised her constantly and she backed off…until Friday.

Yes, there are problems but we had an uneasy truce.

She will not take direction. She refuses to do tasks that is part of her job routinely and for the most part I overlooked it. I could take up the slack and did so….until Friday.

It was quite a show. Right there in clear view of the patients and loud enough that I got a call from administration asking what was going on.

I am still shocked at all this.

How can me saying ONE sentence cause such a mess.

AND I said it to BOTH my coworkers…and it wasn’t anything nasty, derogatory or out of the norm.

I’ve said it before many times…..

“Please don’t bring back anymore patients, we need to get caught up”.

Seriously…that is what I said.

I just don’t know.

I know she ain’t quite right sometimes but nothing like this.

I guess I’ll find out in administration tomorrow morning.

The sad thing is ….if she came after me…..and I am not sure if that is the case….her job is gone. A long career over.

I am hoping I am wrong. I don’t want to see her lose her job like that.

I do want her to do her job. Stop refusing to do this, or that.

She really does seem to think that because she’s been like a fixture there that she can do whatever she wants…and pretty much screamed that at me …….

Somehow I think she is about to be re-educated.

Maybe I should dig some more……..

 

 

 

 

 

Mother’s Day! Almost…

Tomorrow is Mother’s Day.

Today I am attending a fashion show luncheon to support a local charity that is near and dear to my heart…..with my Mama.

Recently I had a great epiphany.

As I walked into a exam room and found a coworker crying. She lost her mom many years ago. That devastation never leaves her.

I almost lost my own 15 yrs ago to Breast Cancer.

I realized how lucky I am. How blessed I am.

My mom has ALWAYS been my rock.

When I was young and pregnant and all alone she put her arms around me and said it will be okay. And it was.

She held my hand as my son was born. After working 8 hours at her morning job and another 6 at her night job.

She worked three jobs to support us…even when she was too tired to think she never complained. Never asked me for anything.

My mom has supported every decision I ever made, even when she didn’t agree with it.

She stepped in to help when I went back to school full time, she cooked, cleaned and chauffered my kids around.

She was there when I walked the stage and received my LVN certificate, as always cheering me on. I couldn’t even look at her or I would have fallen apart.

and I pray she will be there when I walk the stage to get my BSN…and again I won’t be able to look at her without completely falling apart.

All I know is I don’t tell her how much I love her enough. I don’t spend enough time with her. I don’t call as often as I should.

I know one day I will wish I had….

but how can you thank someone for doing so much, for being there every moment of every day? For always being your hero. For showing me how to be a good mom and a good wife?

Somehow because I am my mother’s daughter in every sense of the words….I think she knows.

I love you Mom!!

Possum and her Mama

 

Difficult week. A lesson learned. A prayer answered.

I don’t know what to say.

I am human. I made a mistake. A big, huge, awful mistake.

Every nurse makes mistakes.

That is why we have procedures and protocols to minimize errors.

I won’t call it an “accident” because that implies that it was not preventable and it was.

It was an error.

BUT… it was 100% preventable.

and

I am 100% responsible.

Had I followed protocol. Had I done my job the way I was taught…I would have caught it before it became an incident.

Yes, we are understaffed. Yes, we are rushed and distracted.

But…..that is NO excuse.

When it comes to our job….lives fall in the balance. We MUST find ways to minimize the risk to our patients. We MUST follow the protocols and we have to slow down, focus better, minimize distractions and come up with routines that prove to be “best practice” and follow them religiously.

I refuse to blame anyone but myself.

I am very very lucky. My patient was okay and that in itself is a gift.

I COULD have lost my job. I COULD have lost my license and I may still be sanctioned, I don’t know what happens next on that front but none of that matters in the least to me.

I am just so glad that my patient was not harmed. He could have been.

I know I did the right thing. I immediately reported the error. Everyone was notified that needed to be. I immediately filled out an incident report.

I took full responsibility for what happened. Yes there was an error made by someone who may have caused a chain reaction kind of situation but had I done what I was supposed to do…it would have been realized before it became an error and corrected easily.

There is NO ONE else to blame for this but me.

Looking back there were things that stood out to me as odd…but I didn’t stop to investigate. I should have. Tiny little nagging things that should have made me double-check the situation at hand.

Even AFTER…when I discovered the error…it is pure luck that I even discovered it at all. I didn’t follow my normal routine and that is why I immediately noticed the error. Had I followed my normal routine I don’t think I or anyone else would have even known it happened.

This is by far the most difficult thing I’ve been through as a nurse.

I feel terrible. It’s an awful thing to do and to deal with.

I cried when I showed my Nurse Mgr how this error occurred.

I cried when my Nurse Mgr told me my patient would be okay.

I cried as I signed my formal write-up.

I cried as I thanked her for giving me a second chance.

I cried when I told her that I was sharing what happened with my coworkers. Yes, I am embarrassed and upset but I want to prevent them from making the same mistake I did.

I cried each and every time I went from nurse to nurse and explained how I made this mistake and physically showed them how easy it is to make if we are not diligent in doing things the way we were taught.

I cried when my co-workers hugged me and showed me support.

I cried when I apologized to the Doctor.

Bottom line is…..

I cried RIVERS.

I learned a valuable lesson.

This is something I will NEVER forget.

I can honestly say I am human and as humans we are not perfect, we make mistakes. This one, however, is not one that I will ever repeat.

 

 

 

 

Blogs that make me laugh til I cry…

My all time favorite blog posts …

These are the ones I revisit and read again and again.

I don’t mean the blog…I mean the specific blog post because they are HYSTERICAL.

I follow and read many blogs and I admit some are really funny but these are my all time favorites…

5# – I LOVE Heather over at (B)itch Log. Yes she goes places I sometimes don’t want to tread but oh she is so funny.

http://heatherchristenaschmidt.com/2012/07/31/my-trailer-trash-mom-returns/

#4 – Wrinkled Mommy has the most awesome illistrations using those little playskool people. This one is my favorite:

http://www.wrinkledmommy.com/2012/08/life-illustrated-the-bath/

#3 – It’s a Dome Life  -she is a fabulous artist and funny to boot. Her tale of being an invited guest to a theme wedding.

http://itsadomelife.com/2012/06/if-only-the-wedding-had-been-a-spoof-of-crouching-tiger-hidden-dragon.html

#2 – Crappy Pictures

I laughed and laughed. My kids kept asking if I was okay because I had tears streaming down my face and was gasping for breath…. yes THAT funny. Mostly because I too have had the experience of Penis Pizza. And no it isn’t dirty. It isn’t gross it’s just plain funny!

http://crappypictures.com/penis-pizza/#comment-160632

#1 all time favorite is  My Brain on Kids  (ok…ALL her posts are pretty funny but this one really takes the cake).

http://mybrainonkids.net/2012/08/19/the-vagina-monologue/

OMG I TOTALLY forgot to tell y’all that I have been labeled a devil worshipping Pagan!!

 

 

It started innocently.

A close friend mentioned on facebook that she wonders if when her kids are older if they will feel cheated because they do simple little baskets with a chocolate bunny and maybe a toy…and so many people make a big ta-do about the Easter Bunny Baskets.

I commented that when our boys were young we did more…because of course they believed in the Easter Bunny. We dyed dozens and dozens of eggs. We over bought for sure but my thinking was my kids didn’t get alot of ‘extras’ between holidays. No big toy purchases. No new videos or things like that. We kept toy purchases for Christmas and Birthdays…along with a few small ones from the Easter Bunny…and I don’t think her kids will be upset or slighted. Tradition is tradition. Everyone does it different.

Next thing I know a mutual friend is commenting on how they don’t do Easter. It’s a pagan holiday. Eggs and the bunny symbolize worship of the devil… and she is thinking of baking something to symbolize “Resurrection week”.

What the hell is Resurrection Week?

Anyway… apparently because we incorporate anything outside the RELIGIOUS belief that Easter is the day Jesus rose from the dead…we are pagan devil worshippers….who I am sure will rot in hell. Ok, she didn’t say the last part but I can read between the lines.

Did I mention that the original poster…is by far one of the most upstanding Christian women I know. She walks the walk just as she talks the talk. All in a non judgemental and accepting even tolerant way. If I could be even a little like her I would be happy. And she celebrates Easter sunday with church and a big meal….as well as an easter basket and dyed eggs.

If anyone is going to hell…it isn’t going to be her. I can assure you.

Our friend…who is misinformed on a regular basis about even the most basic of ideas….completely missed the boat when I declined to agree with her and mentioned that I felt the way I did when my cousin informed my Son when he was 5 that he was going to hell because we dressed him up as a clown and took him trick or treating.

Oh no…another “Pagan” holiday that ensures our foothold in our descent to hell.

She took this statement as positive…in that she is delighted to have been able to “inform” us of our misdeeds and directed us to a website that showed all kinds of Pagan nastiness in order to keep us from going to Hell.

Yeah…uh no. I guess next time I just need to point out… the more you type the more I want to punch you in the throat you misinformed backwoods lack of social graces piece of trash……who may I point out doesn’t even go to Church! But feels she has the right to inform us sinners what we are doing wrong.

This is a girl who has a special needs kid. One that definitely has some problems….but is so afraid of government involvement in her personal life that she refused to have him evaluated or diagnosed. So she walks around saying he has a specific condition (which I can say as a nurse he does not, He has A condition…yes, but not the one she says he does) and that her other two also have issues…one I agree…has issues and should be evaluated but again…we can’t convince her that by applying for Medicaid/Chip doesn’t give the government open access to her home so she won’t ever know for sure.  She won’t even take them to the Dr for a check up and forget about any vaccines. She refused to allow them to even be seen by a doctor no less vaccinate against even chickpox or the flu. She rarely takes them out in public. These kids don’t know how to deal when they are around other kids because she keeps them isolated.  She has anxiety problems…. ya think?! But she’s passed them to her kids by not letting anyone around them.  They live in a bubbly of her making. She homeschools all of them …and is doing a fabulous job but still has no REAL idea what the hell is wrong with them…so how can you meet their educational needs if you don’t know their deficits?

Am I being unfair?

Am I just lashing out because I was essentially called a devil worshipping pagan?

Should I just pray for her?

I think one thing is for sure. I need to block that crazy bitch because I don’t know how much of her self righteous crap I can take before telling her I really want to punch her in the throat.

Spring is here!

I jumped the gun a little. It IS April. It is SUPPOSED to be warm and sunny but it’s a cool 44 degrees yesterday morning.

Where is our normal warm weather? What happened?

I remember spring break when I was a teenager and going down to Galveston for the week…we ran around in swim suits, partied like rock stars and there wasn’t a hoodie or sweats (Yoga pants of yester-years) or even anything more than flip flops seen as foot wear.

It was breezy….but that comes from being on ….the beach.  It wasn’t a cold wind. Just a lazy warm wind that kicked up once in a while.

I can’t IMAGINE going to Galveston a month ago. It was COLD.

I am thinking they may have to rethink this whole “Spring Break” thing…to be more of a MID-Spring break…in perhaps…late April when (hopefully) it warms up on a consistent basis.

We did however have a nice Easter.

Me and the boys went to my parents. Hubs was miserably sick. This weather is really jacking with everyone with allergies this year.

Here are the highlights:

The older boys got bored and decided to play “8 seconds”. Awesome.

 

My mommy made me an Easter Basket full of goodies and yummy stuff. Beautiful too!

More 8 seconds in the living room….nice.

And the FOOD…Oh so much food!

The Table….all fancy schmancy with Easter stuff everywhere.

See all those ceramic eggs? Those were all hand painted by my Grandma…Aren’t they pretty!

So that is the recap… I still have tons of goodies from my Easter basket left.  I took tons of pictures because when it’s slow at work we grab one anothers phones and just flip through the photos…and none of lead all that exciting lives so we take pics of EVERYTHING..lol.

and today is Saturday!

I slept in 3 hours and got up at 8 ish.

My plan is to tackle my jungle of a back yard with the weed eater today. Maybe spread some ant poison on the yard and get ready for SPRING planting.

I have 4 plants I rescued half dead from HEB last month that are growing like crazy on my window sill and will need replanting outdoors very soon.  I am hoping that they produce some zucchini and tomatoes. Last year I got NO zucchini thanks to the squirrels digging them up and some tomatoes that were promptly attacked by those stupid stink bugs.

Going to survey my strawberries and see how they did over the winter months. I just haven’t wanted to brave the jungle to go look yet.

Just going to wait for it to warm up a little more before I put on my rainboots (great ant protection) and wade through my weed filled yard to see what needs done.

Don’t worry….pics to come if they aren’t too embarrassing.

***edited and added***

I got 5 minutes into weed eating and I broke it. Oh well, looks like I will call in the yard guys next week.

I am happy to report that we just made paid off our loan to my parents for my new car!

Yes, we are alittle broke right this minute but it felt so good to hand that envelope to my Dad and say Thank you so much for this…

Of course, he was like…”now I don’t want you in a bind…how about you take some back just in case..” uh no.

But now I am confident that by honoring our commitment that should something happen they know they will be repaid on time as promised.

Have a great day! Thanks for stopping by!

March already?! Where did the time go….

I know, I know. You thought I fell off the planet.

So here’s a quick recap of what has kept me from blogging.

WORK

  Yes, I have a great schedule. I work like normal people and am hitting the freeway at 5 pm everyday. For a Nurse this is so rare. I am off most major holidays (Except Good Friday…which I am highly annoyed about…) and EVERY weekend. But I am exhausted after work. By the time we get everyone fed and the normal daily chores done I am crawling to bed as soon as possible. I get up at 5 am so I figure you’ll forgive me.

TRAFFIC

I have recently discovered “HOT LANE” signs up on my route so being the adventurous type (not)…I still decided to give it a shot.

OMG! My normal over an hour trip takes me NINE minutes. Seriously!

Apparently these special lanes can be used if you have a tolltag and you are charged a specific amount per leg of the journey.

Now yes, I pay for this privilege but it’s worth every penny. My entire commute home door to door went from 1 hour and 15-30 minutes down to about 30 total.

Here’s the problem.

I am unsure if the “HOT LANE” is officially open for business. I am unable to check my tolltag online and they aren’t known for updating regularly anyway…so …. I am not entirely sure what I am doing is legal…YET.

BUT….considering there are signs up that direct traffic to the “hot lane” I am willing to take that risk. If they didn’t want people to use it then the signs shouldn’t be directing traffic there.  I don’t mean ONE sign either. They are all over the place!

I would fight that ticket if I had to. It is worth the ticket to get that time back with my family everyday anyway.

RODEO!

Yes. We went to the cook off thanks to Hubs work connections. We went on Sat. We took the metro from a park n’ ride and went down to Reliant Stadium for the festivities.

Us on the bus.

Ate some GREAT bbq at Hubs friends tent and took in the sights.

Now THIS is the reason I don’t drink.

I had ONE…. O-N-E… Beer with dinner and somehow thought it would be an AWESOME idea to ride the skyscape. That is the ride that is like a ski lift. It doesn’t stop. A worker lifts the “safety bar”…it scoops you up, he pulls the bar back down and up you go. Legs dangling, swinging in the wind….up about 60 feet off the ground, on a ride slapped together by Carnies. At the other end you descend and another worker lifts the bar and you hope off and run out of the path of the next descending seat. Fun. NOT.

It LOOKS fun until you are on it and begin the ascent….and realize you did not have NEAR enough beer to consider this remotely fun or even a good idea.  Hubs and I talked about whether we had enough life insurance the entire ride.

Maybe this would be a good ride for MET LIFE to sponsor as I would bet we were not the only ones to have that particular conversation during that ride.

We ate cotton candy, we played some carnival games. Look Hubs won me a MINION!!

  

We decided to call it a night when a drunk cowboy almost fell on me and we saw not ONE but TWO girls puking in public.

Oh…but then we had the joy of a lady who overindulged (and who quite honestly was old enough to know better) puking ON the bus.

There is no sound like the sound of vomit hitting the floor of a bus.

Ewwwww!

Happy to report we were safe and home in our bed by 9:30pm.

On a side note: Years ago our second date was the Rodeo Carnival.

VALENTINE’S DAY

Look what Hubs made me!

I am not a huge fan of fresh flowers because they don’t last long.

These will last forever!

Yup, he’s a keeper.

Y’all don’t get any ideas now because he’s ALL MINE!!!

HOUSTON MUSEUM OF NATURAL SCIENCE

We took a family day trip downtown to the museum.

Big had to work so it was just us and we took Middle’s girlfriend too.

It was fun and relatively inexpensive…had we not gone out for lunch after it would have been a nearly free outing.

Me and Little.

The new dinosaur exhibit is FABULOUS!

No, not $15 per person over 12yrs and $10 for kids fabulous but thanks to some FREE passes I was given I can honestly say it is AWESOME.

Lord knows it should be…they have been working on that wing for YEARS!

This particular exhibit gave me nightmares. It doesn’t look impressive but the pictures LIE. Those jaws are an easy 10 X 10 feet in real life.

Worth going to see.

I couldn’t get a good shot but there is a mural right next to the exhibit that shows the shark actually beaching itself to eat a rather large dinosaur.

Yes, the things that nightmares are made of.

I think that covers it…besides Hubs recent woodworking projects, our frequent eating out

(and yes, we still tell the kids we are going grocery shopping and go out to eat ALONE on occasion)

and our taxi-ing our kids around as they are becoming even more social this year.

I want to thank you guys for hanging in there.

I do check my stats every once in awhile and have noticed that my Boric Acid v. Borax post still tops the charts every week and my follower numbers has drastically increased while I still don’t appeal to everyone and that’s okay I appreciate those to read and chuckle whether you comment or not.

Keep on rockin’ and rollin’ and readin’, my friends!

A Very Special Day. Jan 21, 2013,

I am off work today.

It is a holiday.

For me…it is more.

It is a special day.

Today is Martin Luther King Day and also our 44th President’s Inauguration.

I watched it live all day four years ago.

Today I didn’t.

I didn’t watch any of it until awhile ago. I dvr’d it though.

For me…watching a man that I believe in. One that I truly BELIEVES what he says about equality and freedom….

It is beautiful.

It is what America is all about.

It give me hope.

I am proud to say I voted for our President not just once but twice.

I am proud to say I took my son and watched as he hit that cast your ballot button for the very first time.

I am proud to see the Mall full of people watching history be made …again.

It’s a great day for America! We have something to be proud of today….

“We the people….” that says it all….

So much to say and so little time…

I promised…and so here I am.

Let’s keep it to the highlights:

Yes, still love my job. Yes, still feel that nurses eat their young. Yes, still hate the 3 hours I drive in traffic to and from work everyday. Yes, still hoping to transfer to a clinic closer to my house.

I actually met a friend for lunch yesterday and she was asking me to come work with her. I totally appreciate her thinking of me but I love where I am. I’m not going anywhere for now. Does make me feel good to be asked though.

The fam:

I have a husband that is currently in denial about having Strep. His boss who literally sits 4 feet from him all day came to work all week sick as a dog, went to the Dr. got told he had strep and then CAME BACK TO WORK. This is a guy on salary. One who CAN take a few days off to get well but chose instead to come to work and spread his germs all over hubs job. Now MY beach vacation is endangered because hubs will probably need to use his vacation time as sick days….hence, possibly costing me MY vacation. Do I sound amused? Trust me I am not.  Sure the big bosses love this guys dedication but they won’t like it when the whole freakin’ office is out sick at the same time. That asshole is gonna owe me a beach vacation!

The boys are all fine and well. All doing well in school. Middle just joined football (against my advice but whatever). Big is getting ready to transfer out of town to college. Little is doing better at being more social. He even went on a “playdate” yesterday…and man am I glad I didn’t agree to have the other kid spend the night last night! Sending a kid home having been exposed to strep would not be good.

On to the big news stories and top buzz!

Lance Armstrong’s interview with Oprah.  WOW. didn’t see it. didn’t need to. The promo’s she ran all week told the story. He admitted to doping. I just don’t get how anyone is surprised by this. I wasn’t and I’m not much of an athlete. What I want to hear is why he and Sheryl Crow REALLY broke up? I always thought it was suspect that a guy that beat cancer broke up with a girl right after she was diagnosed with breast cancer. Seems weird to me…

Kim and Kanyae announce she is pregnant. Super duper holy crapola wow! I used to watch the show. I stopped when she married Kris. I didn’t like him. They seemed awkward together and I just didn’t believe it was real. Kim’s relationship choices have been bad over the yrs. She has made some poor personal choices such as filming sex, bedding her bodyguard and marrying a moron. Now she’s dating Kanyae. Nice. I just read she says she won’t have her baby on the show or be selling photos. Bull#$%&. That girl would sell her grandma if the check was big enough. That is gonna be a pretty baby for sure but anyone want to bet which cover that baby will be on?  Dating Kanyae…really? I mean the girl seems insecure…she needs a nice guy who will take good care of her. He, I do not believe is the best choice for that. He is too into himself. I wish them all the luck in the world together….personally, I think they are gonna need it.

The Sandy Hook Conspiracy Theories. I just don’t know what to say. I watched a short little youtube video and I admit that there are some crazy coincidences that occurred that day. I saw the cops surrounding a guy handcuffed on the ground in a livefeed video that morning on the news with MY OWN EYES.  There most definitely was a guy at the very least detained…and we have heard nothing about him. Not who he was, why he was there…in fact they are denying there even WAS a guy on the ground handcuffed…yet we SAW HIM. I agree the medical examiner was a freak. No doubt. Unprofessional, laughing and being a complete goofball during the interview; no denying that. Now there has been all kinds of talk about the guns. FOUR were reported. Ok that’s just a number. How many times have you seen a story on the news and they get the facts completely wrong. Wrong sex, wrong age, wrong area of town, wrong race….you name it they screw it up in their rush to be the first to report. Now they say 4 guns. None of which were rifles. All the wounds were made by a rifle yet the rifle was in the trunk of the car. Two things here. First reporters don’t know guns. They make this shit up as they go. Second I saw them remove a gun from the trunk..in a video that cut to the part of them standing by an open trunk. I didn’t see it opened. I didn’t see anything that came before…and honestly that was the shortest rifle I’d ever seen but I’m no gun girl so I don’t know. Let’s talk about the whole fb thing. I don’t know. I saw it in the video I have not checked myself. I haven’t a clue why someone would make a memorial page days before the incident occurred. Who created it? How did they know? Was this just some photoshopped screen shot to make it seem credible? I just don’t know. What about the guy who said he took 6 kids in his house to safety…found them at the end of the driveway crying and saying their teachers were dead. Where is the mysterious bus driver who stopped her bus at the end of the driveway and let off the 6 kids? Where is she? Where are the kids? What about all those videos from that morning….one things is correct and we even commented on it that day…there was not ONE video of a child. Not on school property. Not leaving. No parents. Where were all those kids and how did they get them out of there when they were not allowing any vehicles near the school. Yes we saw the one photo of the children holding hands and crossing what seemed like a road or parking lot….one picture. Where are the other 600 + kids? Why aren’t they in any of the ariel videos? Why weren’t tents constructed like we see in other incidents to keep media away? Simply there was nothing to see. No kids. No parents. If I thought my kid was in a school on lockdown I would have parked and RAN through the woods to get to them. Period. Forget waiting down at the fire house. Forget being shuffled around waiting for my children to be brought to me or me to them. No way. No how. There is no way to control 600 mothers looking for their kids. No way ever.

Our extended blogger family has been affected deeply by this when I heard of one  (blogger) mother looking for her child for HOURS before finally being told he was at the hospital. He was a casualty. She was kept there for hours before being told he was dead on arrival. I see something wrong with this. I don’t know exactly what the problem here is but I know there is one because simply I am not stupid.

This is what I DO know.

Coincidences happen everyday. They happen on a little and big scale to us all.

BUT ….no one pays any attention to them til someone ends up dead then everyone says that couldn’t have possibly happened. “What are the chances?” Guess what….the chances are high because weird stuff happens everyday and it doesn’t even register as weird or strange. Let me share of my own few that stand out as absurdly unlikely.

-Hubs has a stepdad. He also has a stepmom. His mother met and married a man in a state 1200 miles away from TEXAS….but both their ex’s live in TX. One stop shop when they come for a visit. They get to see us and his stepdads kids too since they live about 40 minutes from us. There are 50 states in the U.S. What are the chance of meeting and marrying a man whose ex-spouse lives in the same state as yours? one outta 50? I’m no math wiz but I will tell you it’s WEIRD.

- Hubs stepmom and my mom worked together for 7 yrs and knew each other well. We did not discover this until we had been dating awhile. Weird.

-I went to spring break with friends years ago…years and years actually. A friend had to leave to go in for his shift at work. I asked that he stop by my house and pick up some cash for me from my dad. My dad would be home after work. He went and worked his shift, then headed to my house….where the door was opened by HIS BOSS. My dad was his boss. I had no idea he worker where my dad did. I live in HOUSTON by the way….the chance of that happening are so slim it’s scary.

-My hubs tells me of a story about visiting the Grand Canyon as a child and the girl that sat next to him in school was there too. They live NO WHERE near the Grand Canyon by the way….for them both to be visiting there on the same day at the same time…freaky.

So…lets take the grand canyon one. Let’s say the girl gets lost…dissappears never to be seen again…like I don’t know aliens abduct her or something…. don’t you think it would SEEM odd that Hubs family who lived in the same tiny town 1000 miles away just happened to be there then too? Don’t you think there would be all kinds of talk about how it couldn’t possibly have been coincidence? A major investigation would ensue I am sure.

Do you see what I’m saying? Coincidences just aren’t noticed til something goes bad.

Do I think there is something wrong with the whole Sandy Hook Tragedy? Yes. I think they have done a pisspoor job of reporting. I think the media’s need to one up each other facts have been twisted and turned for higher ratings.

You will never see me judge a parent’s grief or their actions while grieving. I will not comment on any of that. Not on the news footage. Not on the interviews or the press conferences. It’s disrespectful and just downright wrong. Who is to say how we should grieve? No one!

BUT…

Do I think there is a conspiracy? I wouldn’t say a conspiracy but I would say that I sure would like to know how Fema and homeland security just happens to be running drills and exercises just minutes from some of the recent incidents. I would like to know about the guy I saw handcuffed on the ground…even if it were a mistake and they cuffed a guy walking his dog. Big deal..at least they wouldn’t be withholding information …because that is what is REALLY adding fuel to the fire…the lack of communication about these issues with the public.

Okay…well that wraps it up for this week.

Enjoy it, be grateful for it and pray for those who don’t know better.

 

 

 

 

 

Bet you thought I fell off a cliff or something…

I have been remiss in my blogging. I know it. I don’t have a good excuse except that I am away from home for 12 hours a day now. I get home and quickly change clothes (usually in the garage to avoid spreading clinic germs all over my house) and then start dinner. We eat. I get a brief rundown on the boys and how they are doing. Clean up. Pack a lunch for the next day from leftovers (if I’m lucky!)…shower…dry my hair and am in bed by 9:30 or 10. Only to be up at the crack of dawn, actually BEFORE DAWN…I watch the sun come up while I sit in morning traffic at 6:30 in the morning.  I guess that is a good excuse. My kids and husband need me more…and while I miss my readers and my blogger buddies we all know we blog to ADD to our lives not take from it.

I will keep blogging. Probably sporadically…and I do apologize for that but I don’t want to miss a second with my family now that I am away so much.

The upside is I am off work every holiday and weekend. The beauty of working in a health clinic run by the County health system; Just ONE of many perks, I am SO blessed to have the job I do even if it means I drive far, spend a lot of time in traffic …what I do, what I GIVE BACK is just priceless and worth every second.

So I will do my best to try to update y’all at least every weekend….

I have a new post coming this weekend….I am off for MLK day and plan to stay up tonight working on a big one.

I have so much to say…. with all this Lance Armstrong business, the Gun control issue being debated and of course, Kim Kardashian’s big BABY announcement…. oh my…just so much material to work with this week. Don’t know where I will start.

So come back!

I won’t leave you hanging. Promise!